feel as though im neutral about everything alrd.
immune.
zzz.
not emo. emotionless.
irony eh. hahah.

我似乎已分辨不出喜怒哀乐
我不在乎

this one month has been hell of a rollercoaster ride.
ups & downs, we've been through it until now.
exactly one month.
hahah - -"

thanks for being with me all these while;
memories are meant to be kept, or forgotten?

girlfriend came over today! <3
lovahh, tho you had so much work! jy okay.
& gwennnnntan another girlfriend. hahah couldnt meet but it's okay luh!
& ct and evelyn who went to shop today -.-
& ahguo for the letter, which i lazy reply. hahah
& taufamily. lol ;D
& guo's kuanhe, you always pei he me uh!

reply tags next time.

hurts to let go, but hurts even more to grip on.

Hehlo im high now!
:DD
Today is a happy day.

Cos. R&R postponed to next Monday wahahahahha.
DVS's the BEST man ^^ & my laogong also.
She was the one who asked for extension hahahha.

& Didnt screw my Bio or Phys quiz (Well at least i THINK i didnt screw)
:D

Though i was totally SLEEPY so i think i didnt pay attention during IH at all zzz. I slept through all the videos Ahhan was showing us & i swear he saw. HAHA.

Today O's results! Vinette came back & had a short chat with her (:
She told me her batch of facils who went for bsp camp last year's gonna crash this year's man!
Hahahhaha. & guo and qian wanna crash too
:D
Lol. Yanglao ask Yiran & someone else i forgot & me to go and be facils this year zzz.
Not bad lah. I like Sports School alot :D
Hopefully Yijiao's going as well! My rival-lover ^^

Dont know how Peixia Xinni & Naomi fared for O's! Bet they'll do great lah hahahha.
& Cheekohpeh grats uh! <3 See told you it wont be that bad right! ^^

Tmr going Suntec i think with Miss Yeo for the evening gown thing cos she asked 8 people to be her model for her talk or whatever -.-

Debbie's going too! Yaye.
So missing CCA until around 4 plus ): Rawr. If they do barre then I'll miss the training part AGAIN! TT

But it's Hudie again tmr (: Suikim oh Suikim you better come back tmr man!

Bye. I lazy write more alrd.

fishcake: Hahah uh & who are you? -.-
noobu: Lol. Yeahh. Hahah i think our angels all damn nice ^^

Im energetic now :D
Finally got my energy back man!
Cos didnt go for cca today, headache larh -.-
In the end slept my whole afternoon off hahhaha.

Well chionging my r&r now ):
Im like. Brain dead for these kinda stuff alrd, after today's langarts presentation.
Hahahha it lasted for one whole hour, the whole class got very agitated over whether to abort or not
.______.
Which is good i guess! :D

Oh yeah cca yesterday was damn. Lol.
Cos it's Hudie mah. Then i thought i could slack, then in the end Suikim never come back so i took her place and became a xiaoge for the first time in my life (other than Chunjiang when i was in Sec One, HAHA)
:D

& Baikar came back, had a nice chat with her about her JC life. Hahaha.
She said lots of people changed alot, backstabbers and all that ):
I dontwant.
Rah.
Idk lah, im gonna cherish my last year in Nanyang man :D

Today this damn cool lady by the name of Elaine Heng came to give a talk on Social Etiquette. Quite funny.
She was showing us those pictures of Hollywood stars without their makeup. Expected luh, they look totally different. Especially Pamela Anderson man! Like -.o

So like. I conclude that most (if not all) celebrities are normal looking. Super average. Makeup counts alot man.
So those people who are naturally damn chio will be ultra chio with makeup lah :D
Who wants to be the next Pamela Anderson? o.-

Nothing exciting in life. Hahaha.
& i slept through Bsp lecture, again.
Can't help it. Today really too tired in school alrd.
:/

I've decided. Im gonna join library club in JC. HAHAH.
8D

xinyan: Hahha her boyfriend rocks. WHOOPS. Hahha. No lah. Zzz you all anyhow go say lah! The part about me having two kids was totally redundant -.-
cheekohpeh: HAHA. Lol! I dunwan to be Mrs Wang please -.- It's dumb, tell you on bus haha.

Rah.
Super super super tired now D:

But havta finish preping for LA presentation tmr D:
Who ask me suay suay pick the first one zzz.
Nvm.

Our topic's on human rights. Abortion. In the case of a rape.
Rah, pro-choice's stand is difficult to find evidence :/
But seriously lah. Abortion should be legalized if it's the case of a rape lor. I mean it's not the woman's fault at all please -.-

But after I went that website which laogong sent us FORGET IT. Abortion should be banned. Totally.
The pictures not only were gross lah, it's really saddening to see those dead soon to be babies D:

Oh well. So touching.

Anyway back to school. School life is pretty busy & fcked up.
Especially all the ugh, dontknow how to say shit stuff.
Alot of stuff jiu dui le la! ):
Rah.
& today last half hour Ms. Yap addressing us in audi.
Zzz.
Omg.
She was telling us about our school skirts & all that shit.
Wth.
Cover knee uh.
Next Monday whole of 4o7 wear ankle-length skirts i bet we'll get role model class.
HAHAHHAA.
.____________.

Dumbass.

xinyan: Wahlao. Ask your friend go die. Jealous alr. Haha no lah. I want the pictures 8)
vernice: (: We're in this together babe!
debbie: Haha you taugay :D
siyu: You then stupidass luh. Stop karjiaoing me on msn now luhhhs. Haha. Not i kaypo can. Is qiuhan call you at wrong time zzz
noobu: Haha whatever! You're stupid, everyone agrees :D
cheekohpeh: Haha wahlao first time you tag here zzz!
gwen: ^^ Yep must meet up soon & have a good long chat man! & our GUANLAN date! <33

bored (:
janice told me about jaychou's concert.
nqmm guest.
hahah & he played piano battle 1 & 3 with yuhao ;D
nvm lah. i go buy dvd can alrd ^^

rah.
hell period over.
phone kana confiscated for TWO MONTHS
D:
nvm. still can live.
hoho.

yesterday was jaychou's birthday
:D happy 29th siah.
HAHA. & janice's at his concert now!
D: rawr i wanna go loh. dumbass.

dance on friday was okay.
never train jumps.
balance was damn sucky tho shats.

nvm. im feeling pretty neutral about life now.
dont know good thing or bad thing -.-
if studying is long distance running, im on the right track, but i need more adrenaline.

superputtie: haha are you disappointed i didnt get fooled. anw paiseh cant reply your sms cos phone confiscated.
eunice: hahah hello eunicekho! :D
yannrong: LAME YANNRONG reply liao. also dontknow why i reply you on tagboard zzz -.-
noobu: still say me your tags also nowhr constructive CAN! x)
xinyan: haha what.
siyu: hello back stupid TAUpok (: i lazy scan HAHA.
vernice: YEAP I KNOW I LOVE YOU GUYS <3

today's such a.
confusing day.
very extreme lol.
one moment very high then another moment very emo
:/

especially at dance. dontknow wtf i cried.
the second time infront of laoshi somemore.
i like laoshi's hug.
it feels so secure.
i just cried and cried in her hug.
talked with her about my problems,
she saw my scars too.
she asked me to listen to her.
maybe what she said is all true.
but.
idk.

&& first time in front of debbie & siyu.
haha they were telling me about our TAU family to cheer me up.
i love them alot alot alot.
im taufu, for dontknow what reasons -.-
siyu=taupok
debbie=taugay
qiuhan=tauni
xueyan=tauqiang our zhang lang.
-.-

so spastic, that's why i love them. & im really thankful to them for appearing in my life, cos i always feel much happier after crapping with them
(:
& alot more people. you guys mean so much to me (yes you too noobu haha)

i love my dancemates.
i love laoshi.
& you.

fck.
mom & dad saw the scars.
suay. & they go scold me again :/
i know im wrong luh. also dontknow why i do it in the first place
-.-
stupid.
nvm
hopefully they'll understand.
lol lyk what crap.
which kinda parents will understand their child doing that kinda thing zzz
forget it.
zzz.
emoing is so not my style.
nvm lah.
sian diao.

shall talk about happy stuff.
lyk VERNICE WOMAN'S SURPRISE YESTERDAY HAHAHHAHA.
well it's VERNICE & NICOLELIM'S BIRTHDAY TODAY! <3

then yesterday. aiyah.
long story.
well.
quite funny.
asked anrui to ask ver out.
then ask him pangseh her.
then in the end aiyah alot of stuff happen.
zong zhi,
we appeared & gave her her 100+ bucks adidas bag (HAHA, THREE STRIPES LOL).
then i bet she still abit sad.
cos she still thought anrui pangseh her.
but in the end he appeared with her cake then
someone damn damn happy liao lor.
even bought her that 14 bucks keyring leh.
siao. so nice.
VERNICE YAP YOU WIN LIAO~
:D

today school not bad. quite on form. zzz qian never come ):
after sch ct came over & we lamed our whole afternoon off, ended up sleeping on my bed and mom got a super big shock when she opened the door & saw two girls sleeping together zzz.
HAHA.

xinyan: hahah you so pro drop science for what! & yeah la i know you damn tall zzz.
noobu: lol. feel sad for you, HAHA.
superputtie: lol. fine lah you tall zzz -.-
qianqian: LOL. arent you ALWAYS bored :p
siyu: .__. i prefer to eat my own beansprouts thankyou very much :D
vernice: hahah now i blog about it alrd lol. & congrats on your first victory! :D

LIFE'S UNFAIR,
im still 162 wthhhhhhh.

D:<

EVERYONE'S GROWING EXCEPT ME!

rah. stupid.
i think i totally stop growing alrd.
sian.
pe was nice.
tennis.
i still lyk vball & badminton better lah -.-
ms.chue damn cute ^^

screwed chem & bio quiz today.
zzz.
my science is,
really cmi can.
D:
forget it.
things will get better.
HAR HAR. -.o

four hands today with ct during lunch.
evelyn was amazed LOL.
so not bad quite successful. HAHA.
miss yeo didnt come for math.
slept that hour off.
bleaugh.

only been looking forward to dance cos this friday is goddamn lousyyyy.
was okay.
i still think i prefer training proper than co-ing the dance :/
sec fours went to middle bar today.
more challenging cos the bar was shaking lyk mad zzz.
jumps!
:O
shitzzzzzzzzzz DIE DA TIAO DIE.

today.
is an unexciting day.
14th soon wle.
so fast.
not prepared yet :x

evelyn: hahah whatever loh! & you shibai never come sit with me today D:

(:

finished editing all the prelim lit reviews.
WAHHAHAHAHHA.
& edited the proposal

>:)

knee better alrd.
wahlao tuesday dance hurt it again
-.-
but it's like. i love barre!
& i want to train. all the jumps lyk, long time never train totally lyk shyt now.
:/
so couldnt miss out training, in the end still hurt my knee wthhh.

so didnt dance chundao in the end. sparsed with wenjing & siyu & jiawen. HAHA.
laoshi did changes to the dance.
lame yuanchen was taking my place hahahha.
she's bloody spastic.
&& laoshi's putting her into daidao to replace naonao!
sigh nao's too busy with vjc and all that so.

RAH. so weds didnt go cca
-.-

so far, my sch life is. boring me out.
IAM PROUD OF MY MATH TODAY.
IT'S BEEN BLOODY 6 YEARS SINCE I DID SMTH LIKE THAT.
hahahha.

anyway. back to my shitupid knee. tmr noneed wear kneeguard alrd YES FINALLY.
& MORE BARRE FOR CCA TMR I WANT.
heh.

sian. gotta mug chem .___.
sucksssssssss.

xiangyi: :O we confirm must meet up. dontcare :/
qianqian: shitupid. YOOHOO. haha.
xinyan: lol i bet you have no intention of showing me right cos you want it all for yourselffff. haha
noobu: LOL. that explains your name. noobu.
vernice: yeah right. but i took lrt with you to jelapang yesterday loh :D
gwen: HAHA LOL. you laugh at everything please -.-
qiuhan: too bad you dont like him, YOU LOOK LIKE HIM. & please lah you wu ba dan beansprout person x)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIYINGGGGGGGGGGGG!

HAHA. the smartass liying was cheated by us today!
like. evelyn you could get nominated together with me for the oscar. YEAH RIGHT YOU HAD GASTRIC ;D

& it's seven of us together again! yesterday cake, today also cake zzz.
but liying's cake was DAMN delicious. HAHA. so unlike unglam gwen, who totally embarrassed us yesterday.

hmm so after school met up with gwen and ver first and went j8 to buy cakeeeee :D
then 3rd lang people came out. saw nicole and xiuhui hahaha.

had another round of wonderful acting, lying to liying that evelyn had gastric so brought her to guardian there to buy medicine lol.
& the aunties there wanted a share in the cake too, we said no :D

lol TWO DOWN, FIVE MORE SURPRISES BIRTHDAYS TO GO!
zzz. i realised everyone's birthday is before june. EXCEPT MINE.
TT
gwen liying ver in jan
layting in feb
qianrui in april
evelyn in may

bojia in oct.
.______________.
& every year my birthday very difficult to get people cos all overseas luh!
D:
i dontcare.
I WANT SURPRISE THIS YEAR HEH.

and i thought of alot of plans for ver's birthday, which is like next monday! HAHA.

<3 liying 16 alrd too! she can go watch movie with gwen alrd. HAHA.

oh it's mr.wangkuanhe's birthday today too. exactly same as liying. xinyan came over to sit next to me for class cos ive got extra seat.
so she aiyah, xiang nian kuanhe so she used my phone to call him & wished him happy birthday. HE SOUNDED TOUCHED. haha.

zzz. so im like. chionging my chinese book review now lol.
it's damn STUPID.
cos.
i alrd finish reading my chi book eons ago liao!
then i go return to library without writing down my review.
TT
so now im crapping some stuff out of this very spastic book. lol.

&& quarrelled with mom just now.
fck,
she's like. effing pissed im in band 3 class for math wthhhh.
wasnt that like last year news.
zzz.
bitch. so pissed. band 1 band 3 what's the diff. it just maybe sounds better.
parents nowadays are all bullshit.

& that's what my lame chinese book is writing about. how ass parents are nowadays. i have a feeling i'll ace this book review after all.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GWENNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

WO AI NI ALOT ALOT ALOT.
:D

went lot one to celebrate this ass's birthday today. HAHA.
gave the the biggest surprise of her life YET :D

she was like damn stupid luh, thought only ver and evelyn lunching with her!
mei xiang dao liying & layting & qianrui & BOJIA were there too!
and me & liying act pissed that she never go out with us.
haha.
im a good actor manzxzxzx .__.

and she went totally hyper in the foodcourt.
EMBARRASSING!
even the rotiprata man was saying happybirthday to her. HAHA.

&& every year it's gwen that has the surprises BIG and EARLY you know!
i jealous alrd. HAHA.
(:

TMR IS ANOTHER PERSON'S BIRTHDAY.
HEHHHHHHHH.
no surprises though darling liying, dont expect anything :DD

hmm and anrui came over to wish her happybirthday. GWENNNN XING FU RIGHT.
hahah. and yichao was with him! i wanted to talk with yichao one can.
but after that abit leng diao so -.-

then took lrt with ver to her stop! sat there & she wanted to EMO.
HAHA.
she likes valentine's day by LINKINPARK!
so do i (:
and we talked for a looooooooooooooong time man.
hahahah.

sch tmr SIAN. but it starts later whoots!

noobu: haha i cant tmr. someone's birthday :D
xinyan: HAHA LOL! will have talent de lah! and rmbr to show me the pics you took at tiongbahru! (:
vernice: OF COURSE. I COULD WIN AN OSCAR WITH THAT KINDA ACTING ;D

rah rah it's weekends!
with TONS of homework, it's disturbing D:

oh well. and i havent attend ms.tan's lesson yet!
jieyi said yuanchen said she's damn good.
ct said she damn on, like total OPPOSITE of tintin lah.
screw :/

missed some lessons cos was away for orientation.
didnt perform, but left early anyways to help out (:

then saw rebecca joanna & yenngee back from hcjc. haha. they were complaining that the first day of their orientation sucked, just as jingwei said :x

& peehua came back! watched orientation concert together. HAHA.
judo & chinesedrama's performance was damn funny, i swear.
:D

BUT QIANHONG ROCKED EVEN MORE!
like. wow. hahah. got the feel can. it always happens during the actual performance, especially qianhong.
tell you jialing blended in damn well with the sec twos. HAHA.
admit it jialing, you aint that tall yet :D

mmm then the modern and chinese dancers all gathered into studio for showcase. 15 mins chinesedance & 15 mins moderndance and it goes on and on until 4.

was pretty okay, we did 4 dances in all.
qianhong by the sec fours, hudie, huaji and fengwu (:
and sec threes danced kongque later too.
and some people went off in costumes to be mobile advertisers. HAHA. it's always yisheng :D
business should be quite good this year, but sadly last year showcasing for sec fours alrd D:

heh then slacked off the remaining cca time, cos laoshi was busy with the sec threes. yuanchen was being ultra spastic as usual, i swear me and qiansiyu laughed our arse off x)

after dance went kap with qiansiyu and wubadan (qiuhan HAHA -.o)
and lamed there for awhile. stupid qiansiyu owes me LOTS of money or so she calls it, towGAY. - -" HAHA.

saw sarah at busstop! she was going kap with her og group hahaha and we got very high -.-

sian. tmr sunday alrd.
GOING JURONG POINT.
AHEM AHEM.

gwen's birthday tmr & liying's birthday on monday
:D

shenyang: HAHA happy belated newyear :D
siyu: YES I LOVE YOU MORE that's why i gave you the necklace toot.
xinyan: dont remind me im damn sad! i dunwan be ac D:
superputtie: lol hahah i know lah.
noobu: i know you're ALWAYS entertained here. hahah THANKS for the post zzz -.-
nat: yep saw them thanks (:

second day of school. hahahhaa.
sian
.__________________________.

actually havent talked about first day. oh well first day's just the boring crap, blah blah about studies and marks and msg and promoting and all that shitzzz.
the fun is when we changed our seats.
HAHA.
IM SITTING NEXT TO MY LAOGONG TOH JIA LER NOW!
:O BUT LEE YIJIAO'S SITTING NEXT TO HER. my rival -.-
but really lah.
i like my new seat alotalot.
though i miss my 3o7 table which was ultra vandalised :/ amanda said her friend wiped away the words wthhhhh my art!
TT

oh well. nvm. i think 4o7 has good fengshui though. HAHA.
mmm then guess what. liying's sitting behind me.
omfg. for 9 frigging years we've been in the same class, this is the bloody first time she's sitting behind me HAHAHAHHA.
and waiyee & mabel with her (:
then kaiqi qian & eunice infront. haha.

okay groundbreaking news. liying's the ass head cause erm, i kinda sabo-ed her?
:x
but she's capable okay! :D
&& dammit im the activity coordinator wthhhhh. yanglao was like saying this person must be dunno what la, fun or what or shit, cos have to plan youth day and graces camp and all that and bloody lah the whole class just unanimously called my name.
.____.
& jialing's my ass hahahhaa.
sian. nvm. at least not the fm can alrd. i will never eat in class anymore -.-

ohoh then had qianhong prac after school. sian. first day jiu cannot go home early alrd -.- but was okay lah. kinda slacked abit cause talked alot with the sec twos, esp jiayi that fellow gossiper. haha.

then after dance jiayi accompanying me and all that at the busstop, talking serious crap. saw josh and kuanhe there lah BOTH OF THEM DAO ME wthhhhh. josh cause he was chasing after his bus. HAHA. then wangkuanhe that idiot i even shouted his name he claimed he didnt see me after he got on the bus.
-.- sian.

oh then today.
I SCREWED MY KNEE!
)))))):
LIKE WTHHHHHH. sad.
forget about how i screwed it, total diu lian please.
so not dancing qianhong tmr alrd, nvm nvm. all sec twos then. but jialing's maybe replacing xiaotong so she'll be the only sec four! pro pro (:
and bian's kneeguard works wonders. went doc after school he said cause my knee became super loose then all that shitzzz
D:
but i'd be able to dance tmr so yeah! (:

oh oh physics was nice today. i like mdm toh alot alot alot :D
and let's see what else.
oh yeah i swear im gonna die for r&r. hurhur .__.

alot of people's birthdays coming soon man. gwen, liying, shiting, vernice, nicole, linkai, sheena, limmin, yinhwee, kuanhe and lots more and not forgetting JAYCHOU<3
WHOOTS.
HE'S SEXY 29 NOW. HAWWWWWWWWWWWWWT.

lol. okay. i shall be more serious.

reflecting upon 2oo7.
i swear it's the fastest year for me.
like zoom. over alrd.
maybe it's a good thing. hahahha.
but there's so much to reflect on.
so i shall just conclude.

i will love the people around me more.
i will stop being so selfish.
i will love my 171 more.
i will mug more.
i will try to have no more life.
i will dance like never before.
i will not drink that much with my dad.
i will not burst my phone bill.
i will read more books.
i will grow taller.
i will mean it when i said i will grow taller.
i will shop less.
i will love jaychou more.
i will try to live my life more peacefully.
-.-

(: i mean it! hahah.

vernice: yeah la yeah la miss nice! ;D but why you turn us down at the queue tsssssk!
siming: hahah but i forgot you're a gep-er! confirm can breeze through your sec three year one lah :D
linkai: tssssk. i swear you're the most spastic junior ever. HAHA.

-.-
sian.
that's what noobu did when i asked her to post for me zzz.

okay. hello 2oo8. i dont like you.
i dont like being a sec four.
i dont like my classroom not on the first floor.
i dont like shitty teachers.
i dont like mugging.
i dont like SIAS.
i dont like everything.

i dont like being pessimistic.

so hello 2oo8. i like you 8D

WARNING: MISS BEEJAY TOOT COULDN'T LOG ONTO BLOGGER.
SO NOOBU SHALL HELP HER!:D

sch's reopening tmr! D:
totally screwed can. sian.
hw still undone luh. (haha noobu also!)
it's the kind of last min chionging stuff again.
but will definitely fail one. -.o
i swear sec4's gona screwed up again!gawd.
let's just hope it's gona be SLIGHTLY better than 2oo7. :/

ps. ben&jerrys icecream tastes extraordinary sweet!8)
pps. ARGH. i have found my TRUE LOVEE! aww. [:

OKAY. NOOBU YOU ARE GONA THANK ME FOR TIS!
(:

HAPPY NEW YEAR FELLOW READERS!